First of all, I am embarrassed to say I had NO IDEA there were pageants for girls like me. That, in and of itself, is a problem. Until I saw this documentary as a "suggested" page on Facebook, I equated the "pageant lifestyle" with horrors like "Toddlers and Tiaras" or the mean girls that used to torture me in elementary school.
When I saw these beautiful women, the confidence they exuded and the FRIENDSHIP they continued to place above all else, I was touched. I could not believe I wasn't more aware of this whole scene, because when I began to explore the press package and the Internet searches, I could not believe the beauties I found! I was astounded at the popularity of it all, and most strangely...drawn to the idea of me as a pageant queen.
Besides being extremely eloquent and poignant, this documentary brings up conversations we NEED to be talking about. Why is the "average sized woman" competing in a sub-genre of the pageant world? What does that say about us as a culture? Do you feel the same "pressures" to be perfectly presented because you are plus-sized? Do you feel that, "leave no excuses" feeling every time you get dressed, checking and re-checking that all layers are in order? Why do I feel like if I threw on a maxi dress and left my face greasy and took pictures of myself with a vacant stare, it would probably cause vomiting? If some size two hipster did it, it would be the new ad campaign for Obey.
I love it when Allison says, "They have opportunities...why can't we?" It's a great question. Why deny ourselves the attention and love we deserve? Why do we "settle" for less when we deserve everything and more? That's it, from now on I am giving myself the love and extra cheese I deserve without feeling guilty.
I will wear whatever I want out, regardless if I look like a "fat slob" or not. In fact, I think Fat Slob would be an excellent clothing line name. I'm all about breaking stereotypes, and now...practicing my pageant walk.